This space is for you - to share your own story. I am often most inspired and encourage by the thousands of others who have experienced a touch of God in their life, be it through a near-death experience or other.
I am reading your book, 7 Lessons From Heaven, for the third time. Each time I have read it I learn something new about heaven and our hereafter.
You answer so many questions I have about what we can see and expect in Heaven and those answers have given me calmness about dying and hope in living each day here on earth.
I have wept and prayed as I have read your book. God certainly had his hand on you and as a result you have blessed many lives with your experience. I wouldn't wish what happened to you kayaking in Chile on anyone but what you have done with that experience has advanced the kingdom of God and taught many who will listen that God is still in the business of miracles.
I have had many happenings in my life that I knew were from God. None quite as astonishing at yours but ones that there was no doubt God heard my prayers.
One in particular I would like to relate to you.
My husband and I had left the small rural church we attended and traveled to a larger city where we were wanting to be fed by the word. Months went by and we were assaulted by family and friends stating we needed to come back where we belonged and there had been generations of our families in this church and we needed to keep that alive. It hurt to think that they did not care about our spiritual health.
In studying my Bible, each time I would open it, it seemed to fall open at Mark 5 and my eyes would fall on the 19th verse. " Go on home to your people and tell them the great things the Lord has done for you and how he has had mercy on you." This went on for months and each time I would think about the little church we had left. One morning I said, " Ok God, you open the door and I will walk through. I cannot do this alone. " Later that day there was a knock at my door. When I opened the door there was a older gentleman from the church we had left.
He said, " Reva, I don't know why I am here, but I wanted to ask you to teach my Sunday school class for a couple of weeks." I knew why he was there and before I could think or refuse I said, Yes. We did go back and I taught the adult class for four years. It was a time where I learned far more than the members I would imagine, but it was a time when my faith grew because I let God lead.
Yes, I agree if we pay attention we can see miracles every day. I see them sitting in my back yard and have a book in progress called, "God of my back Yard."
I just wanted to thank you for keeping on keeping on and sharing with the world what God did for you. If I have to read your book many more times I am sure I will learn something more.
I WAS NIPPED ON THE HEAD WITH THE FORCEPS I HAD BRAIN SWELLING BUMP AS BIG AS A TENNIS BALL AFTER I LOST ALOT OF CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN MAKING ME BRAIN DAMAGED
HELP ME I AM BRAIN DAMAGED
WHAT IS FORGIVENESS
WHAT IS FORGIVING SOMEONE WHO LIES ABOUT WHAT THEY DID 2 YOU
I NEED HELP 2 BE A CHRISTIAN AND UNDERSTAND IT
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT LETTING GO IS?
WHAT FORGIVING AN RAPISTS & DRY HUMPER is?
I WAS SEXUALLY ASSAULTED HELP ME I WANNA FORGIVE BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 LET WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE ABUSER GO HELP ME PLZ?
I've prayed the Sinners Prayer Millions of times but i can't forgive matthew mcadam no matter how hard i try 2 let him go i can't let go of the lies that still continue because matthew won't stop lying i wanna be free from unforgiveness and sadness because matthew continues 2 lie about raping or dry humping me........
Pray That these people will forgive the people who have sinned against them & pray that they will pray the sinners prayer n repent & turn from their sins like Me, I Myself, Laura Anderson, Nick Lewis, The Two Police Officers I met on the 13th of May 2019, Jason & Silver Golden, Duncan & Tran McPhee, Robert & Lynski McPhee, Peter & Hels McPhee, Carol Gregson Smith, Jordan, Madison, Sebastian, Amelia & Danielle Churches,Vaitiare Hirshon, Santina Hamilton, Mia, Hannah & Jayde from Mentis Assist, Jake Ryan, Pia Miller, Esther Anderson, Steven Peacocke, Isabel Lucas, Tessa James, Tim Franklin.... TAMMY LEE GLUYAS, CHANDA MAMBWE, DARSHINI JACOB, DAVID MAIOTUI, HENRY CAVILL, BEN FROM BEAUFORT, MICHAEL DIBLASI, THE SANDY BLONDE GUY THAT PLAYED PIERRE GRANDIRORRE IN MY HIGHSCHOOL PLAY QUASIMODO IN 1997 WILL ALL BE ABLE 2 FORGIVE THEIR ENEMIES..... It's too late for Raudha Athif, Sian Kingi, Norma Jeane, Jonbenet Ramsey,The Philistine Girl of Timnah, Her Younger Sister & My Father Frank Churches whom I love more then the whole world.....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CJ_W9lE0co
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1vLrF-BeGY
how do you learn 2 love rapists & dry humpers that deny it n lie thru their teeth even if your told that all the people that all hate you are all in your mind due 2 schizophrenia?
I am spiritually a stranger, thirsty & hungry.... I thirst for truth I thirst for matthew mcadam 2 tell the truth or god 2 tell everybody the truth about matthew mcadam so I can be free from the torment of his lies I want god 2 show me who I was when I was 14 again I have forgotten my true care free self that was good, chaste, sweet & forgiving I want god 2 restore the normal carefree lexy I was when I was 14 I don't wanna be a rape victim or a whore or seen as an lying whore I don't want this
https://www.facebook.com/Crazyskittles11
Amanda Lobb knows the truth she was my best friend in kindergarten when i was a little girl can you talk 2 her for me 2 help me get free of my past with matthew mcadam & all my schizophrenia I want 2 be free from matthew i want 2 completely forgive him the lies 2 come 2 an end
it is not matthew mcadams fault that I have schizophrenia
it is not dr diamonds fault I have brain damage
the I blame the forceps that nipped me on the head when I was a baby for damaging my brain
I blame my brain damage for giving me schizophrenia
I don't care about being raped in the past any more I am not angry for being raped I am hurting because matthew denies it
the lies bother me I want 2 forgive matthew but he continues 2 deny the truth
I want people 2 believe the truth about me like god does because of matthew mcadam people don't believe the truth about who I am..... & that's not okay with me...…
my true self was lost when matthew denied what he did 2 he did 2 me I was chaste I never talked about sex I wasn't interested in it I was normal when I was 14 when I turned 15 n got raped or dry humped I lost the real me I loved knowing myself when I was the real me.... the real me was when I was 14 before matthew mcadam raped me or dry humped me I was like anne of green gables when I was 14 I was carefree normal I miss my carefree life I wish I never got raped how I wish I never got raped I wanna be that carefree 14 year old girl again I miss her I miss the normal me
I want 2 marry nick the policeman I met on the 13th of may 2019 all I want is 2 be nicks daughter & grow up 2 become his wife at the same time in heaven I want an Asexual Marriage or an Swedenborgian chaste sexual intimacy marriage https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7Nyz6EvR18 in heaven with nick the police man I met on the 13th of May 2019 I wanna experience sex in a chaste way in a good heavenly way not a hellish way like matthew mcadam treated me like sleeping beauty the princess talia in sun moon and talia fairytale in real life he had sex with me while I was sleeping I saw matthew on top of me moving up n down...
(7) Partners enjoy intercourse with each other just like intercourse in the world, only happier and richer, though without having children. Instead of that, or in place of it, they have spiritual offspring-loves and perceptions. Partners enjoy intercourse in the same way as they do in the world, because after death men are still male, and women are female, and from conception both have an implanted tendency to join together. This human tendency is in your body because of your spirit, so after death, when people are spirits, the same mutual inclination remains, which is not possible without the same intercourse. For people are people as before, with nothing missing from a man nor a woman. They stay the same in bodily form as well as in feelings and thoughts. So what else can follow but that they have the same intercourse? And because love for marriage is chaste, pure, and holy, the intercourse is complete. But more about this appears in the story in no. 44. Intercourse is happier and richer then because when that love becomes spiritual it becomes deeper and purer and therefore more fully appreciated. All joy grows with awareness, and it grows to the point where you can feel the blessedness in the joy of it. 52 Marriages in heaven do not produce children, but spiritual offspring instead (loves and perceptions) because for those in the spiritual world an ingredient is missing-the material level. This provides the vessel for spiritual things, and without their containing vessel they do not take a physical form the way offspring conceived in the natural world do. And spiritual things, seen for what they are, trace back to love and perceptiveness, so these are the offspring that spiritual marriages conceive. I say conceive
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because married love fulfills an angel. It unites him with his partner to make him more and more human, for, once again, two married people in heaven are not two but one angel. So it is through marital union that they fill themselves with humanity which is wanting to be wise and loving what belongs to wisdom
Plz Pray that Vaitiare Hirshon, Santina Hamilton, Mia, Hannah & Jayde from Mentis Assist, Jake Ryan, Pia Miller, Esther Anderson, Steven Peacocke, Isabel Lucas,
Tessa James, Tim Franklin,
THE 12 YEAR OLD FROSTETTE BLUE EYED
SIAN KINGI, VAITIARE HIRSHON, RAUDHA ATHIF, TAMMY LEE GLUYAS, FRANK CHURCHES, CHANDA MAMBWE, DARSHINI JACOB, DAVID MAIOTUI, HENRY CAVILL, BEN FROM BEAUFORT, MICHAEL DIBLASI, THE SANDY BLONDE GUY THAT PLAYED PIERRE GRANDIRORRE IN MY HIGHSCHOOL PLAY QUASIMODO IN 1997, THE PHILISTINE GIRL OF TIMNAH & HER YOUNGER SISTER & A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED SIAN KINGI & LAURA ANDERSON, A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED NICK LEWIS & VAITIARE HIRSHON & A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED FRANK CHURCHES
& ALPINE BLONDE BLUE EYED VAITIARE HIRSHON, LAURA ANDERSON, ( Nick Lewis ) NICK & The Blonde older one that was The Two Police Officers I met on the 13th of May 2019, Jason & Silver Golden, Hels & Duncan & Robert McPhee, Karen Mehrmann
AS MY PARENTS IN HEAVEN
I wanna be reunited with my father frank churches
what does my daddy wanna say 2 me now if frank churches my daddy could tell me anything what would my father say 2 me now
my daddy frank died when I was 9 months old he was always carrying me everywhere n cuddling me after I was born but he died from a brain tumour he was a good man he was a very nice man & he didn't wanna die he wanted 2 stay & look after me & Jordan & carol his fiancée my mother but he died from radiation due 2 the bomb testing in south Australia he got brain cancer & died 9 months after I was born why did he die I needed him I was sexually experimenting when I was 8 because I wanted 2 get a daddy back in my life so I wanted an instant husband cause husbands expect sex so I thought the only way 2 get a daddy was 2 get married n husbands expect sex
it's daddies fault for dying that I am stuck with men that want sex I didn't want a sexual partner I wanted a daddy but daddy was dead so I thought if I got married I would have a daddy back now
I have 2 give men sex 2 get a daddy back
it's dads fault he died on me & I am 36 years old so no one can adopt me as their daughter
& frank churches was a good daddy he was a golfer n labourer he was a very nice n kind man he loved me & I love him
I miss frank churches beyond anything you can ever imagine I want FRANK CHURCHES back I need my father I can't move on I need my father I need him I need him ;-((
I wanna marry Nick Lewis the policeman & be raised as Nick Lewis & Frank Churches daughter then marry Nick Lewis when I grow up in heaven I don't wanna grow up alone n unloved I want a father then I want a husband in school in heaven
why did god take everything good that is love away from me
if god loves me why did he leave me brain damaged, fatherless, raped, schizophrenic & without Nick Lewis, Ben from Beaufort, Laura Anderson, Vaitiare Hirshon, Karen Mehrmann, Sian Kingi, Raudha Athif, Frank Churches, Jason Golden, Tammy Lee Gluyas & Hels McPhee
why did he make me so brain damaged that these people can't be my friends anymore why did god kill my daddy frank churches, Sian Kingi & Raudha Athif
I need these people Nick Lewis, Ben from Beaufort, Laura Anderson, Vaitiare Hirshon, Karen Mehrmann, Sian Kingi, Raudha Athif, Frank Churches, Jason Golden & Hels McPhee & Tammy Lee Gluyas 2 be my friends
I need a healthy brain that works properly but I am brain damaged why did god allow me 2 be raped if I am brain damaged
why did I get schizophrenia & hear the crowds chant I am a whore and a slut like queen Cleopatra in Rome when I was in Melbourne city at a Christian concert called youth alive why did god allow this
I HAVEN'T HEARD ANY VOICES SINCE I WAS AT THE BUTTERFLY HOUSE AT MELBOURNE ZOO WITH LOUISE GOODWIN MY SUPPORT WORKER & A LITTLE BOY SAID HE WANTED 2 HAVE SEX WITH ME IN THE BUTTERFLY HOUSE POOL HE SAID " OHH I WANNA HAVE SEX WITH YOU IN THE POOL" LOUISE SAID THAT WAS VOICES NOT AN ACTUAL PERSON
WHEN I WAS 19 I HEARD CROWDS CHANT I AM A WHORE AND A SLUT REPEATABLY COULD HEAR CROWDS IN THE CITY CHANTING I AM A WHORE AND SLUT AT YOUTH ALIVE AT A CHRISTIAN CONCERT IT WAS TERRIBLE THEY WERE SCREAMING AT ME THAT I'M A WHORE AND A SLUT WHEN I GOT HOME I COULD HEAR PEOPLE IN THEIR HOMES SINGING I AM A SLUT AND A WHORE MY FRIEND RACHEL SAYS THOSE VOICES WERE DEMONS CHANTING I AM A WHORE AND A SLUT
WHY DO I HAVE 2 BE ANGRY WITH MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY DID I SEE HIM RAPE ME
HOW DO I KNOW IF IT WAS REAL OR A HALLUCINATION
WHAT IF IT WAS A HALLUCINATION OF ME BEING RAPED 2 SET ME UP 2 BE STUCK IN ANGER TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY AM I SO ANGRY WITH MATTHEW
WHEN I DON'T KNOW IF WHAT HAPPENED WAS EVEN REAL
BECAUSE I HAVE SCHIZOPHRENIA
I WILL NEVER KNOW IF IT WAS REAL OR HALLUCINATED MY LIFE IS A NIGHT MARE
BECAUSE I SAW MY SELF BEING RAPED WHY DO I HAVE HALLUCINATIONS
WHY DOESN'T GOD UNDO THIS CURSE THAT WAS PLACED ON ME WHEN I WAS 15
I NEVER MADE THIS UP IT WAS EITHER REAL OR HALLUCINATED
CAN YOU TELL ME THE TRUTH
WHY I CAN'T STOP FEELING LIKE I HAVEN'T STOPPED FEELING ANGRY & RESENTFUL TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY DID MATTHEW MCADAM HATE ME SO MUCH THAT HE'D CURSE ME WITH RESENTMENT, SADDNESS, ANGER, SCHIZOPHRENIA , DEMONS TORMENTING ME
I WAS INNOCENT ONCE
WHY DID HE TURN ME INTO A LYING WHORE
BEFORE ALL I SAW WHEN I WAS 15 I NEVER WOULD OF SAID ANYTHING AGAINST MATTHEW MCADAM 2 HURT HIM I NEVER SPREAD RUMOURS ABOUT ANYONE WHEN I WAS 14 I WAS A NICE GIRL INNOCENT CAREFREE NORMAL HAPPY N CHASTE
UNTIL I SAW HIM ACTUALLY RAPING ME THEN HE KISSED ME N TALKED 2 ME I REMEMBERED WAKING UP 3 OR 4 TIMES EARLIER I DIDN'T SCREAM OR PANIC I THOUGHT OF COURSE ITS NOT REAL I'M HAVING NIGHTMARES I THOUGHT AT THE TIME HE WAS RAPING ME IF THIS IS REAL HE'S IN BIG TROUBLE IF THIS IS REAL THIS IS RAPE I THOUGHT THOSE THINGS THINKING IF I FOUND OUT LATER ON IT WAS REAL I COULD TELL PEOPLE I ASSUMED THEY WOULD BELIEVE ME I NEVER IMAGINED THAT PEOPLE WOULD DIS BELIEVE ME I ASSUMED I COULD DEAL WITH IT LATER IF IT WAS REAL & NOT NIGHTMARES THAT COULD JUST TELL PEOPLE HE RAPED ME N THEY WOULD BELIEVE ME N HE WOULD GET IN TROUBLE I WAS WRONG I GOT IN TROUBLE WHEN I TOLD PEOPLE WHAT HAPPENED I THOUGHT HE WAS A DEVOUT CHRISTIAN & THAT DEVOUT CHRISTIANS DIDN'T RAPE GIRLS SO I DIDN'T PANIC WHEN HE RAPED ME I JUST ASSUMED IT WAS A NIGHTMARE UNTIL HE GAVE ME A COUGH LOLLY TALKED 2 ME THEN STARTED KISSING ME WHEN I GOT UP OUT OF MY SLEEPING BAG I SAW THE SLEEPING BAG UNDONE EARLIER....
& I SHUT OUT EVERYTHING I WAS SEEING AFTER WAKING UP 3 OR 4 TIMES SEEING HIM ON TOP OF ME I DECIDED 2 BELIEVE WHAT I WAS EXPERIENCING WAS ONLY A DREAM BUT WHEN HE CAME INTO THE LOUNGE ROOM AFTER GIVING ME A COUGH LOLLY N STARTED KISSING ME I REALISED HEY DID HE JUST RAPE ME IT WASN'T NIGHTMARES & THATS WHEN I CRIED RAPE AT SCHOOL NO ONE BELIEVED ME THAT MATTHEW MCADAM RAPED ME
EXCEPT DENAI DERECKI MY BEST FRIEND AT THE TIME
NOW AMANDA LOBB BELIEVES ME
BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME HE HAS HISTORY THAT OTHER GIRLS HAVE SAID THEY WERE RAPED BY HIM YEARS LATER THEY HAD A RAPE KIT DONE & WERE EXAMAINED BY A DOCTOR N WERE TOLD THEY WERE RAPED BY MATTHEW MCADAM AMANDA LOBB WON'T TELL ME THE GIRLS NAMES THEY ARE 2 SCARED FOR EVERYONE ELSE 2 KNOW ABOUT HOW THEY WERE RAPED.... THEY DON'T EVEN WANT AMANDA LOBB 2 TELL ME THEIR NAMES THEY WANNA KEEP THAT SECRET.....
WAS WHAT HAPPENED WITH MATTHEW REAL OR WAS IT A HALLUCINATION
MY QUESTION IS HOW DO I GET FREE OF RESENTMENT N ANGER TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
&
HOW DO I GET VAITIARE HIRSHON & KAREN MEHRMANN BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN
I NEED FRIENDS OR ILL DIE N BURN IN HELL
I'M ALREADY A VEGETABLE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 FORGET TALKING ABOUT MATTHEW MCADAM NO ONES TEACHING ME WHAT ELSE 2 SAY 2 PEOPLE OTHER THEN HOW MATTHEW MCADAM MAKES ME FEEL....
I USED 2 BE REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS WITH VAITIARE HIRSHON & KAREN MEHRMANN BUT NOW THEY WON'T TALK 2 ME
& I AM BRAIN DAMAGED AND A VEGETABLE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 TALK ABOUT ANY THING ELSE OTHER THEN MATTHEW MCADAM N WHAT HE DID 2 ME HOW DO I STOP TALKING ABOUT MATTHEW MCADAM FORGIVE N MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE WHEN NO ONE WANTS 2 BE MY FRIEND ANYMORE
Dr. Neal:
I am reading your book, 7 Lessons From Heaven, for the third time. Each time I have read it I learn something new about heaven and our hereafter.
You answer so many questions I have about what we can see and expect in Heaven and those answers have given me calmness about dying and hope in living each day here on earth.
I have wept and prayed as I have read your book. God certainly had his hand on you and as a result you have blessed many lives with your experience. I wouldn't wish what happened to you kayaking in Chile on anyone but what you have done with that experience has advanced the kingdom of God and taught many who will listen that God is still in the business of miracles.
I have had many happenings in my life that I knew were from God. None quite as astonishing at yours but ones that there was no doubt God heard my prayers.
One in particular I would like to relate to you.
My husband and I had left the small rural church we attended and traveled to a larger city where we were wanting to be fed by the word. Months went by and we were assaulted by family and friends stating we needed to come back where we belonged and there had been generations of our families in this church and we needed to keep that alive. It hurt to think that they did not care about our spiritual health.
In studying my Bible, each time I would open it, it seemed to fall open at Mark 5 and my eyes would fall on the 19th verse. " Go on home to your people and tell them the great things the Lord has done for you and how he has had mercy on you." This went on for months and each time I would think about the little church we had left. One morning I said, " Ok God, you open the door and I will walk through. I cannot do this alone. " Later that day there was a knock at my door. When I opened the door there was a older gentleman from the church we had left.
He said, " Reva, I don't know why I am here, but I wanted to ask you to teach my Sunday school class for a couple of weeks." I knew why he was there and before I could think or refuse I said, Yes. We did go back and I taught the adult class for four years. It was a time where I learned far more than the members I would imagine, but it was a time when my faith grew because I let God lead.
Yes, I agree if we pay attention we can see miracles every day. I see them sitting in my back yard and have a book in progress called, "God of my back Yard."
I just wanted to thank you for keeping on keeping on and sharing with the world what God did for you. If I have to read your book many more times I am sure I will learn something more.
In Christ,
Reva Horton
Corsicana, Texas
southernbreeze2010@hotmail.com
DR. NEAL,
HI,
I WAS NIPPED ON THE HEAD WITH THE FORCEPS I HAD BRAIN SWELLING BUMP AS BIG AS A TENNIS BALL AFTER I LOST ALOT OF CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN MAKING ME BRAIN DAMAGED
HELP ME I AM BRAIN DAMAGED
WHAT IS FORGIVENESS
WHAT IS FORGIVING SOMEONE WHO LIES ABOUT WHAT THEY DID 2 YOU
I NEED HELP 2 BE A CHRISTIAN AND UNDERSTAND IT
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT LETTING GO IS?
WHAT FORGIVING AN RAPISTS & DRY HUMPER is?
I WAS SEXUALLY ASSAULTED HELP ME I WANNA FORGIVE BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 LET WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE ABUSER GO HELP ME PLZ?
I've prayed the Sinners Prayer Millions of times but i can't forgive matthew mcadam no matter how hard i try 2 let him go i can't let go of the lies that still continue because matthew won't stop lying i wanna be free from unforgiveness and sadness because matthew continues 2 lie about raping or dry humping me........
Pray That these people will forgive the people who have sinned against them & pray that they will pray the sinners prayer n repent & turn from their sins like Me, I Myself, Laura Anderson, Nick Lewis, The Two Police Officers I met on the 13th of May 2019, Jason & Silver Golden, Duncan & Tran McPhee, Robert & Lynski McPhee, Peter & Hels McPhee, Carol Gregson Smith, Jordan, Madison, Sebastian, Amelia & Danielle Churches,Vaitiare Hirshon, Santina Hamilton, Mia, Hannah & Jayde from Mentis Assist, Jake Ryan, Pia Miller, Esther Anderson, Steven Peacocke, Isabel Lucas, Tessa James, Tim Franklin.... TAMMY LEE GLUYAS, CHANDA MAMBWE, DARSHINI JACOB, DAVID MAIOTUI, HENRY CAVILL, BEN FROM BEAUFORT, MICHAEL DIBLASI, THE SANDY BLONDE GUY THAT PLAYED PIERRE GRANDIRORRE IN MY HIGHSCHOOL PLAY QUASIMODO IN 1997 WILL ALL BE ABLE 2 FORGIVE THEIR ENEMIES..... It's too late for Raudha Athif, Sian Kingi, Norma Jeane, Jonbenet Ramsey,The Philistine Girl of Timnah, Her Younger Sister & My Father Frank Churches whom I love more then the whole world.....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CJ_W9lE0co
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1vLrF-BeGY
how do you learn 2 love rapists & dry humpers that deny it n lie thru their teeth even if your told that all the people that all hate you are all in your mind due 2 schizophrenia?
I am spiritually a stranger, thirsty & hungry.... I thirst for truth I thirst for matthew mcadam 2 tell the truth or god 2 tell everybody the truth about matthew mcadam so I can be free from the torment of his lies I want god 2 show me who I was when I was 14 again I have forgotten my true care free self that was good, chaste, sweet & forgiving I want god 2 restore the normal carefree lexy I was when I was 14 I don't wanna be a rape victim or a whore or seen as an lying whore I don't want this
https://www.facebook.com/Crazyskittles11
Amanda Lobb knows the truth she was my best friend in kindergarten when i was a little girl can you talk 2 her for me 2 help me get free of my past with matthew mcadam & all my schizophrenia I want 2 be free from matthew i want 2 completely forgive him the lies 2 come 2 an end
it is not matthew mcadams fault that I have schizophrenia
it is not dr diamonds fault I have brain damage
the I blame the forceps that nipped me on the head when I was a baby for damaging my brain
I blame my brain damage for giving me schizophrenia
I don't care about being raped in the past any more I am not angry for being raped I am hurting because matthew denies it
the lies bother me I want 2 forgive matthew but he continues 2 deny the truth
I want people 2 believe the truth about me like god does because of matthew mcadam people don't believe the truth about who I am..... & that's not okay with me...…
my true self was lost when matthew denied what he did 2 he did 2 me I was chaste I never talked about sex I wasn't interested in it I was normal when I was 14 when I turned 15 n got raped or dry humped I lost the real me I loved knowing myself when I was the real me.... the real me was when I was 14 before matthew mcadam raped me or dry humped me I was like anne of green gables when I was 14 I was carefree normal I miss my carefree life I wish I never got raped how I wish I never got raped I wanna be that carefree 14 year old girl again I miss her I miss the normal me
I want 2 marry nick the policeman I met on the 13th of may 2019 all I want is 2 be nicks daughter & grow up 2 become his wife at the same time in heaven I want an Asexual Marriage or an Swedenborgian chaste sexual intimacy marriage https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7Nyz6EvR18 in heaven with nick the police man I met on the 13th of May 2019 I wanna experience sex in a chaste way in a good heavenly way not a hellish way like matthew mcadam treated me like sleeping beauty the princess talia in sun moon and talia fairytale in real life he had sex with me while I was sleeping I saw matthew on top of me moving up n down...
(7) Partners enjoy intercourse with each other just like intercourse in the world, only happier and richer, though without having children. Instead of that, or in place of it, they have spiritual offspring-loves and perceptions. Partners enjoy intercourse in the same way as they do in the world, because after death men are still male, and women are female, and from conception both have an implanted tendency to join together. This human tendency is in your body because of your spirit, so after death, when people are spirits, the same mutual inclination remains, which is not possible without the same intercourse. For people are people as before, with nothing missing from a man nor a woman. They stay the same in bodily form as well as in feelings and thoughts. So what else can follow but that they have the same intercourse? And because love for marriage is chaste, pure, and holy, the intercourse is complete. But more about this appears in the story in no. 44. Intercourse is happier and richer then because when that love becomes spiritual it becomes deeper and purer and therefore more fully appreciated. All joy grows with awareness, and it grows to the point where you can feel the blessedness in the joy of it. 52 Marriages in heaven do not produce children, but spiritual offspring instead (loves and perceptions) because for those in the spiritual world an ingredient is missing-the material level. This provides the vessel for spiritual things, and without their containing vessel they do not take a physical form the way offspring conceived in the natural world do. And spiritual things, seen for what they are, trace back to love and perceptiveness, so these are the offspring that spiritual marriages conceive. I say conceive
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because married love fulfills an angel. It unites him with his partner to make him more and more human, for, once again, two married people in heaven are not two but one angel. So it is through marital union that they fill themselves with humanity which is wanting to be wise and loving what belongs to wisdom
Plz Pray that Vaitiare Hirshon, Santina Hamilton, Mia, Hannah & Jayde from Mentis Assist, Jake Ryan, Pia Miller, Esther Anderson, Steven Peacocke, Isabel Lucas,
Tessa James, Tim Franklin,
THE 12 YEAR OLD FROSTETTE BLUE EYED
SIAN KINGI, VAITIARE HIRSHON, RAUDHA ATHIF, TAMMY LEE GLUYAS, FRANK CHURCHES, CHANDA MAMBWE, DARSHINI JACOB, DAVID MAIOTUI, HENRY CAVILL, BEN FROM BEAUFORT, MICHAEL DIBLASI, THE SANDY BLONDE GUY THAT PLAYED PIERRE GRANDIRORRE IN MY HIGHSCHOOL PLAY QUASIMODO IN 1997, THE PHILISTINE GIRL OF TIMNAH & HER YOUNGER SISTER & A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED SIAN KINGI & LAURA ANDERSON, A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED NICK LEWIS & VAITIARE HIRSHON & A FROSTETTE & NOIRETTE BLUE EYED FRANK CHURCHES
& ALPINE BLONDE BLUE EYED VAITIARE HIRSHON, LAURA ANDERSON, ( Nick Lewis ) NICK & The Blonde older one that was The Two Police Officers I met on the 13th of May 2019, Jason & Silver Golden, Hels & Duncan & Robert McPhee, Karen Mehrmann
AS MY PARENTS IN HEAVEN
I wanna be reunited with my father frank churches
what does my daddy wanna say 2 me now if frank churches my daddy could tell me anything what would my father say 2 me now
my daddy frank died when I was 9 months old he was always carrying me everywhere n cuddling me after I was born but he died from a brain tumour he was a good man he was a very nice man & he didn't wanna die he wanted 2 stay & look after me & Jordan & carol his fiancée my mother but he died from radiation due 2 the bomb testing in south Australia he got brain cancer & died 9 months after I was born why did he die I needed him I was sexually experimenting when I was 8 because I wanted 2 get a daddy back in my life so I wanted an instant husband cause husbands expect sex so I thought the only way 2 get a daddy was 2 get married n husbands expect sex
it's daddies fault for dying that I am stuck with men that want sex I didn't want a sexual partner I wanted a daddy but daddy was dead so I thought if I got married I would have a daddy back now
I have 2 give men sex 2 get a daddy back
it's dads fault he died on me & I am 36 years old so no one can adopt me as their daughter
& frank churches was a good daddy he was a golfer n labourer he was a very nice n kind man he loved me & I love him
I miss frank churches beyond anything you can ever imagine I want FRANK CHURCHES back I need my father I can't move on I need my father I need him I need him ;-((
I wanna marry Nick Lewis the policeman & be raised as Nick Lewis & Frank Churches daughter then marry Nick Lewis when I grow up in heaven I don't wanna grow up alone n unloved I want a father then I want a husband in school in heaven
why did god take everything good that is love away from me
if god loves me why did he leave me brain damaged, fatherless, raped, schizophrenic & without Nick Lewis, Ben from Beaufort, Laura Anderson, Vaitiare Hirshon, Karen Mehrmann, Sian Kingi, Raudha Athif, Frank Churches, Jason Golden, Tammy Lee Gluyas & Hels McPhee
why did he make me so brain damaged that these people can't be my friends anymore why did god kill my daddy frank churches, Sian Kingi & Raudha Athif
I need these people Nick Lewis, Ben from Beaufort, Laura Anderson, Vaitiare Hirshon, Karen Mehrmann, Sian Kingi, Raudha Athif, Frank Churches, Jason Golden & Hels McPhee & Tammy Lee Gluyas 2 be my friends
I need a healthy brain that works properly but I am brain damaged why did god allow me 2 be raped if I am brain damaged
why did I get schizophrenia & hear the crowds chant I am a whore and a slut like queen Cleopatra in Rome when I was in Melbourne city at a Christian concert called youth alive why did god allow this
Alexis Churches
Frankston Australia
cchurchesbsv@gmail.com
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VHN0C2E2Cog
I'm ON A DEPO INJECTION FOR SCHIZOPHRENIA
I HAVEN'T HEARD ANY VOICES SINCE I WAS AT THE BUTTERFLY HOUSE AT MELBOURNE ZOO WITH LOUISE GOODWIN MY SUPPORT WORKER & A LITTLE BOY SAID HE WANTED 2 HAVE SEX WITH ME IN THE BUTTERFLY HOUSE POOL HE SAID " OHH I WANNA HAVE SEX WITH YOU IN THE POOL" LOUISE SAID THAT WAS VOICES NOT AN ACTUAL PERSON
WHEN I WAS 19 I HEARD CROWDS CHANT I AM A WHORE AND A SLUT REPEATABLY COULD HEAR CROWDS IN THE CITY CHANTING I AM A WHORE AND SLUT AT YOUTH ALIVE AT A CHRISTIAN CONCERT IT WAS TERRIBLE THEY WERE SCREAMING AT ME THAT I'M A WHORE AND A SLUT WHEN I GOT HOME I COULD HEAR PEOPLE IN THEIR HOMES SINGING I AM A SLUT AND A WHORE MY FRIEND RACHEL SAYS THOSE VOICES WERE DEMONS CHANTING I AM A WHORE AND A SLUT
WHY DO I HAVE 2 BE ANGRY WITH MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY DID I SEE HIM RAPE ME
HOW DO I KNOW IF IT WAS REAL OR A HALLUCINATION
WHAT IF IT WAS A HALLUCINATION OF ME BEING RAPED 2 SET ME UP 2 BE STUCK IN ANGER TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY AM I SO ANGRY WITH MATTHEW
WHEN I DON'T KNOW IF WHAT HAPPENED WAS EVEN REAL
BECAUSE I HAVE SCHIZOPHRENIA
I WILL NEVER KNOW IF IT WAS REAL OR HALLUCINATED MY LIFE IS A NIGHT MARE
BECAUSE I SAW MY SELF BEING RAPED WHY DO I HAVE HALLUCINATIONS
WHY DOESN'T GOD UNDO THIS CURSE THAT WAS PLACED ON ME WHEN I WAS 15
I NEVER MADE THIS UP IT WAS EITHER REAL OR HALLUCINATED
CAN YOU TELL ME THE TRUTH
WHY I CAN'T STOP FEELING LIKE I HAVEN'T STOPPED FEELING ANGRY & RESENTFUL TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
WHY DID MATTHEW MCADAM HATE ME SO MUCH THAT HE'D CURSE ME WITH RESENTMENT, SADDNESS, ANGER, SCHIZOPHRENIA , DEMONS TORMENTING ME
I WAS INNOCENT ONCE
WHY DID HE TURN ME INTO A LYING WHORE
BEFORE ALL I SAW WHEN I WAS 15 I NEVER WOULD OF SAID ANYTHING AGAINST MATTHEW MCADAM 2 HURT HIM I NEVER SPREAD RUMOURS ABOUT ANYONE WHEN I WAS 14 I WAS A NICE GIRL INNOCENT CAREFREE NORMAL HAPPY N CHASTE
UNTIL I SAW HIM ACTUALLY RAPING ME THEN HE KISSED ME N TALKED 2 ME I REMEMBERED WAKING UP 3 OR 4 TIMES EARLIER I DIDN'T SCREAM OR PANIC I THOUGHT OF COURSE ITS NOT REAL I'M HAVING NIGHTMARES I THOUGHT AT THE TIME HE WAS RAPING ME IF THIS IS REAL HE'S IN BIG TROUBLE IF THIS IS REAL THIS IS RAPE I THOUGHT THOSE THINGS THINKING IF I FOUND OUT LATER ON IT WAS REAL I COULD TELL PEOPLE I ASSUMED THEY WOULD BELIEVE ME I NEVER IMAGINED THAT PEOPLE WOULD DIS BELIEVE ME I ASSUMED I COULD DEAL WITH IT LATER IF IT WAS REAL & NOT NIGHTMARES THAT COULD JUST TELL PEOPLE HE RAPED ME N THEY WOULD BELIEVE ME N HE WOULD GET IN TROUBLE I WAS WRONG I GOT IN TROUBLE WHEN I TOLD PEOPLE WHAT HAPPENED I THOUGHT HE WAS A DEVOUT CHRISTIAN & THAT DEVOUT CHRISTIANS DIDN'T RAPE GIRLS SO I DIDN'T PANIC WHEN HE RAPED ME I JUST ASSUMED IT WAS A NIGHTMARE UNTIL HE GAVE ME A COUGH LOLLY TALKED 2 ME THEN STARTED KISSING ME WHEN I GOT UP OUT OF MY SLEEPING BAG I SAW THE SLEEPING BAG UNDONE EARLIER....
& I SHUT OUT EVERYTHING I WAS SEEING AFTER WAKING UP 3 OR 4 TIMES SEEING HIM ON TOP OF ME I DECIDED 2 BELIEVE WHAT I WAS EXPERIENCING WAS ONLY A DREAM BUT WHEN HE CAME INTO THE LOUNGE ROOM AFTER GIVING ME A COUGH LOLLY N STARTED KISSING ME I REALISED HEY DID HE JUST RAPE ME IT WASN'T NIGHTMARES & THATS WHEN I CRIED RAPE AT SCHOOL NO ONE BELIEVED ME THAT MATTHEW MCADAM RAPED ME
EXCEPT DENAI DERECKI MY BEST FRIEND AT THE TIME
NOW AMANDA LOBB BELIEVES ME
BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME HE HAS HISTORY THAT OTHER GIRLS HAVE SAID THEY WERE RAPED BY HIM YEARS LATER THEY HAD A RAPE KIT DONE & WERE EXAMAINED BY A DOCTOR N WERE TOLD THEY WERE RAPED BY MATTHEW MCADAM AMANDA LOBB WON'T TELL ME THE GIRLS NAMES THEY ARE 2 SCARED FOR EVERYONE ELSE 2 KNOW ABOUT HOW THEY WERE RAPED.... THEY DON'T EVEN WANT AMANDA LOBB 2 TELL ME THEIR NAMES THEY WANNA KEEP THAT SECRET.....
WAS WHAT HAPPENED WITH MATTHEW REAL OR WAS IT A HALLUCINATION
MY QUESTION IS HOW DO I GET FREE OF RESENTMENT N ANGER TOWARDS MATTHEW MCADAM
&
HOW DO I GET VAITIARE HIRSHON & KAREN MEHRMANN BACK IN MY LIFE AGAIN
I NEED FRIENDS OR ILL DIE N BURN IN HELL
I'M ALREADY A VEGETABLE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 FORGET TALKING ABOUT MATTHEW MCADAM NO ONES TEACHING ME WHAT ELSE 2 SAY 2 PEOPLE OTHER THEN HOW MATTHEW MCADAM MAKES ME FEEL....
I USED 2 BE REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS WITH VAITIARE HIRSHON & KAREN MEHRMANN BUT NOW THEY WON'T TALK 2 ME
& I AM BRAIN DAMAGED AND A VEGETABLE BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 TALK ABOUT ANY THING ELSE OTHER THEN MATTHEW MCADAM N WHAT HE DID 2 ME HOW DO I STOP TALKING ABOUT MATTHEW MCADAM FORGIVE N MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE WHEN NO ONE WANTS 2 BE MY FRIEND ANYMORE
chalette@andorra.ad
karen.mehrmann3@bigpond.com
vaitiare815@yahoo.com
tatiana.shanks@yahoo.com
https://www.facebook.com/Crazyskittles11
AMANDA LOBB
https://www.linkedin.com/in/denai-derecki-worsley-6b86a6104/?originalSubdomain=au
DENAI DERECKI
https://www.facebook.com/zep713
MATTHEW MCADAM